Friday, December 30, 2011

There are no "true" pagans.

Yesterday  was a stressful day in my life, I  was dealing with people that were counter productive for the pagan community. On a facebook group there was a young man that gave a terrible rant. I  am so  happy that I  saved it.

Justin J. Lynch ‎"Most" of the people that you are speaking of don't want anything to do with the Goddess. They are what I politely refer to as "Wanna Blessed Be's"! They use their new found faith as a way to attract attention and nothing more. These people I DESPISE! They make it 10 times harder for true Pagan's. We have enough issues with the "Normals". We don't more "Bad press". As for the few that truly are Pagan and are just trying to "Shock the sheep"... Every faith/religion in the world has morons who think that THEIR religion is the best and must force that knowledge upon everyone they meet. Just be happy in the knowledge that YOU'RE not one of them and move on. Blessed Be ~Love and Light~

Here are the things that  strike me wrong. He is classifying  pagans as true and false pagans. How is this tolerant of  other people's religious views. His comments are as bad as those fundamental Christians that  go around telling who is a true christian and who isn't.  That is one of the aspects of Christianity that  drove me away from Christianity. Every group of people are going to  have people  like this, but nobody said anything about this but me. I  asked this young man to  define his views on what  makes a true pagan, but he refused.

In the post he declares that he "DESPISE" these pagans that  doesn't agree with his way of thinking, and he ended his post with "Love and Light".  Despising people is hateful, it is negative and then ending your post with love and light makes it all  better? I  don't think so, If you are going to  walk  a path of "Love and Light" you can't go  around saying that  you despise certain people. That is being a hypocrite.  And here is where even more hypocrisy comes into  the picture. Others from this group started to  complain about my comments, saying that I  was being negative, but not one word from anybody about Justin despising people and declaring some pagans as false pagans.

If you are going to  complain about negativity  in a group, you should comment about all  people that  post negative comments. Nobody in that  group  was willing to  stand up and admit they  were negative.  I admitted that  I  was negative and the reason why  as well. I  was fighting fire with fire, someone declared that  there are guidelines on being a pagan and I  called him out.

I  had some things to  do and a couple of hours later I  went back  to  this group and saw that they  deleted the two  threads that I  had commented on earlier. I  was told that  "the posts were too negative".  Mostly people didn't like be called out on their biased actions.  They  can't handle negativity or conflict. I  was told by one lady that  she didn't like drama, but went around telling people not to  respond to my  posts. If you didn't want drama , don't get involved in a situation. Her actions were hypocritical of her statements.

Why  does this matter to me?  In the religious debate group  that I  am a part of we have talked to many christians and muslims that said they weren't like those fundamentalists.  Most of us believed that if you are a part of a group  and do  nothing about radicals, you are enabling them. When you see something wrong, you are to  speak against it, well it goes for religion as well.  I  find it disturbing that christian fundamentalists attack and harass non-believers constantly. But not one television preacher has the guts to  tell  his group that  they are not following the teachings of Jesus. How how can you harass others about religion and complain when they comments about your beliefs. You  can't be a pagan and say you believe in tolerance but yet classify pagans  as true and false pagans.

One of the main disciplines that  I  have read in various pagan beliefs is holding yourself responsible as you hold others responsible.  One of my  personal rules is " The moment that  you look the other way  for a friend is the moment the battle of right and wrong is lost.  I  can be negative at times, so I  can't complain about others being negative.  But I  have to speak my mind when I  see hypocrisy in action.

Hypocrisy is my favorite word because it is what  I  battle against on my  journey.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Instant Gratification society Update.

Society on a whole has gotten weaker and weaker. Willpower of most 30 and younger seems to  be as strong as Sarah  Palins's grasp on the US constitution.  There is so much  to blame for all of this.
  1. Addictions to  video  games: people are spending more time playing a false reality game then going outside and actually playing a real game.  Had a friend that  knew all  the ins and outs of Madden's latest football game, but he couldn't run 10 yards without huffing and puffing. Today's video  games are overly violent and lack any  type of moral conduct. We all know of the games that  allow you to  beat-up hookers or kill non-Christians .
  2. Addictions to cellphones: Texting has caused such  a lapse in writing skills. The English language is abused so much by  people that poor spelling is now a normal activity.  " How are you Steven?" is now typed " How R U Stevn?". Texting has caused a great loss in verbal communication skills. People can be in the same room  and will  text instead of talking.
  3. Movies: Most popular superheros on TV  have to have a darkness to  them. The clean wholesome superhero is  boring. People want and edgy  hero.
  4. TV:  Channels like Disney are showing kids that  disrespect their parents. The few that  have parents have one that is  below average in many  qualities.  This  teaches children to  whine to  get what  they  want.  Few channels give the parents the resources to  counter this corrupt influence on their kids. Which is why  most TV is bad for kids anymore.There is the unreality programs that  show the world on how it really isn't.  There are programs that  pervert the most simple of things.  I swear that  the reason why  the programs about the "swamp people" is so popular is because most people can finally feel smarter than  someone.
  5. Media: The news in  the US sucks. Too many  times Cindy and myself are watching the BBC for news. Why? Because there is no spin on it . Faux news has such  a terrible spin that  Canada banned it. There isn't any  unbiased news in the US anymore.
  6. Music is about taste,  but many  groups and singers seem to only be popular as long as they are shocking and very unconventional. Lady gaga  can put on a meat dress and sell a million albums. An actual country singer can write a beautiful love song and it will  barely get any   notice.
  7. Education. I  blame this on Republicans that  drive to  cut education every year. Children are not being pushed and guided into being better and learning something.
  8. Parents that don't know what  the heck  they  are doing. We have to have licenses for almost everything. But yet not to have children. Where are those mandatory parenting classes for first time parents.  There are kids having kids. Parents that  want to  be the best friends of their children. And parents that  can't figure out that it is not all  about them anymore.  Cindy has seen parents drag around a child under 3 years old in and out of stores at 8:00 to  9:00 at night. The kid is screaming or crying, maybe the kids is tired and needed a nap  at 1:00 this afternoon or just be able to  go  to  bed at 8:00. Kids need their sleep  for proper brain development. So  the terrible parents are actually harming their kids.
I  am scared that  the society of  my kids is going to  mess everything up  and I  will have to  work even harder to  take care of them and fix their mistakes.  How  can kids and young adults that  don't have the smallest concept of responsibility handle the world as it is?

I  think  about Obama and the situation that he is in. He was never given a chance to  fix anything, before he was given an honest chance, the spin  and blame game occurred and Obama was blamed for everything  done by  the previous administration. Simple  thinking should have stopped this, but  people refused to  think.  How could 4 years of economical hard times be the fault of a man that  was only president for a year?

 I believe that  people have lost all concept of long  term thinking that  you could steal 100 dollars from a person what  six months and give  the person 20  bucks back  and they  will  be singing your praise.  Most people have become so  wrapped up in the here and now that  they  can't picture thinking 2 years in the future or past.  My  proof is with Newt Gringrich, how can a man that  acted so mean and hypocritical  during the Clinton administration be a front runner in the republican presidential  race. He has had multiple affairs and divorces, take money in questionable manners, and sought to impeach a president that  was guilty of having sex with someone else, which is what  he was doing at the same time.

I  feel  that  the instant gratification Society has no boundaries  from religions either. I  have seen pagans  that  are so flaky and seeming to  not see a bigger picture.  They  treat the gods and goddesses like apps for their cellphone. They  will  call on Hecate for a protection spell and wonder why it worked the way it did.  They  will  call on healing energy for every little  event in their lives.  You can only offer a helping hand so much, sometimes you have to  show tough love and tell  them to  suck it up  and learn from the event.  Sometimes you have to  be the grump  that comments, didn't you know that  Hecate is not the white fluffy  protection goddess, she plays dirty.

How can we mature ones change the world around us? How can we guide those that  think  they  know best? How can we survive this?

The Law and Freedom of Religion.

Last  week I  was witness to a discussion on animal sacrifice. A very  delicate topic in my  mind, but I  was wrong in a conclusion that I  had. I  remember reading that  all  religions have the rights to  be practiced as long as they  follow the laws of the land. With  that  being said, Animal cruelty laws I  thought would ban animals sacrifice. I  was shown a supreme court ruling that allowed animal sacrifice because it was part of a religious practice.

This has so many  dangerous possibilities, that I had to  think  long and hard on how to  address this topic.  There is the US constitution that  says there shall  be no laws pertaining to  religion.  This is the one piece of paper that  protects our rights as non-Christians in the US society.  But at what  point does it allow bad things to happen in the name of religion. There are groups that  sacrifice  and then cook the animal that night as part of their ritual. Santeria being  probably  the most well known.  As long as the animal doesn't suffer and they do  actually eat the animal that  night, I  can accept them doing that  act.  I  am not the type that  would kill an animal unless it was a matter of survival.

What  happens if a group uses religion to molest children.  The Mormons are known to  marry off their girls at 14 years old. Warren Jeffs is going through trial for sexual misconduct with children.  But what if they  say it is part of their religious practice? In Iran a man can marry a 9 year old girl, it is defined in their quran. Where is the limit of freedom of religion and the start of criminal law?

What  bothered me the most with allowing animal sacrifices under freedom of religion is this. Most Serial killers start off by torturing and killing small  animals. When the thrill of small  animals dying is gone they  go  to  a bigger animal, and eventually start torturing and killing humans. What  happens if a serial killer uses his religious freedom to  cover for his mental issues and then starts killing humans.  It could have been prevented if there was crime committed and he had to  get tested by after his third or forth animal cruelty charge.  But then there is the other side of the sword.  What  if a christian dominated state congress passed a series of laws that made small  aspects of paganism illegal.  They  can then slowly make practicing paganism illegal by  outlawing certain traditions.

How can any  group of pagans  work  to  handle this situation? We have to  work to preserve all  branches of paganism and yet give paganism a positive  image.  The moment that  we exclude a group for anything, then we have lost what  we are working for. Other  Pagans would say  that   we are defining what is allowed and not allowed to  be a good pagan, which  we  all know would lead to massive in-fighting.Many  animal rights groups would fall swayed by  christian groups that  say  that  pagans sacrifice animals in blood rituals. But we know that  very  few pagans practice any  type of animal sacrifice.  If religious practice is used to  cover  a person's mental disorder, and he claims to be a pagan, then he can tarnish everything that  matters to us. This is something that  I  would like you to  think  about, and I  would like to  hear your take on this situation.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Pagan image, the clouds that hide our goodness.

    Lately I have been reading and learning more about the outer image of paganism. I have grown concerned and troubled about how people act, and wonder how to  fix it.  But actions by a few can turn into something ugly quickly, and can mirror actions of other religions. We pagans love to  think  for ourselves and some of us protest whenever someone steps on our toes. I  believe that  sometimes we have no  choice in the matter, that  something has to  be done to  protect the greater good of paganism.

The Kaye Berry saga continues, shortly after being told that  she needs to  remove herself from the New Council of Witches concept, she is still  selling services under a witch banner.  A good friend stated that  she was having an Herbal  class for $2,000, a dramatic increase in price. Is she doing this out of anger? My  gut tells me that  she is, but I  will  never know for sure. What  rhetoric is she spewing if she is angry with the pagan community.  She has threatened people with legal  actions, what  does that  say  about paganism? What  does that  say  for pagans? 

I  am bothered with  information that  I  have learned tonight. There is a book called , "The Good Witch  bible" by  Gavin Frost. I have yet to  read the book, not sure if I  want to  buy  the book to  show support for it either.  In this book , there are many questionable comments made about sexuality and children. If half of what I have read about is factual, I  couldn't  support this book in any manner.  All  religions in the US must follow the laws of the land, and anything that  is sexually corrupting children is violating the laws of this nation. This  gives paganism a black eye, Anyone seeking to  find something to  hold over paganism can use this book and say  that  pagans are sexually corrupting children. 

I  am wanting to  promote a clean image of paganism. Pagans are not sexually repressed like the abrahamic religions. We like sex and will  enjoy sex when the proper situation occurs. Most pagans believe in sexual acts between consenting adults, not with children.

How do we protect this image of paganism that  we hold dear to our hearts? If a group of pagans created a list of questionable practices according to  the law, they  could be considered angry and spiteful. We want to  right to  practice what  we believe in, and if we start to "black list" certain aspects connected to  a pagan path, aren't we just as guilty as the christians that  try to condemn  other christian groups?  I  think there is a difference, but not much.  Currently there are fundamental  preachers spreading hate and intolerence about so many  other groups, but barely  any  christians are speaking up  against them. Thus allowing the hate to  continue. If a group of pagans were to make a list of questionable books, rituals,  or groups based solely of  legal and ethical actions, then the difference is made.

Can you stand by and allow others to  tarnish what  you have worked hard to  build?

Monday, December 5, 2011

The Fragile Pagan Community

I have been a pagan for many  years now, and I have seen how large groups of people can never get along. It is well documented that  the Christians and muslims can't get along with thier own, but  that  also  applies to us pagans. Their is the infamous 2% rule  when it come to  groups, that  there will always be 2% of any  group  that  take a hardline view on any subject.  I have had Yahoo groups for pagans and the level of bickering is as bad as the christians fighting over jesus  being god or the son of god.  The Pagan communities are rather fragile, but so  are many  other groups.

What is all  the fighting about...EVERYTHING! I  could write a short novel discussing all  the arguements in paganism.  Is the Wiccan Rede law or just an idea? Can you harm someone to  defend others? What  side to  you cast a circle with?  Which Pantheon is better? What is Historically correct and what isn't. Is there white and dark magick? Like I  said there are so many, but the one I  want to  talk  about tonight is the "Who has the right to  represent me as a pagan?" question.

There has been rumors and efforts by some to recreate  an "American Council of Witches". And the one thing that I have seen is a lot of pagans saying that  this council doesn't know what  you practice and thus can't represent you.  This is one of the many  repurrcussions of christianity. I  wonder how many  of you realize that  you feel  this way  becuase of the ways christianity tried to  control you and the way  that  you think. Many  pagans were once christians, and one of the reasons why we left was because we hated being controlled. So many  pagans view this council idea as a way  to  control pagans. While I  see thier point of view, I  see the error of that  stance.  If we as pagans can't get past  this  hurdle we can never work together to counter any other religions attempts to limit the activities of paganism. Does it have to  be this way? Are we doomed because of our christian fears to prevent any  group of people represent us to  the rest of the world?  Can we just for a moment decide on a group of people that  work for the pagan communities in collecting and giving information out about paganism as a whole?

It shouldn't matter that I  am a druid and another pagan is a wiccan. If we can remove the finer points of  everyone's unique paths , we should be able to  accomplishing many  things. I have witnessed arguements on who is pagan and who isn't. Too many  people say  hello to  all "pagans and wiccans", but yet wiccans are pagans.  I have seen arguements of neopaganism and vintage  paganism.  I  really don't see an end to  these debates. Here the two-sided sword of labels is hurting paganism. I  do  like to know what  a person believes, that  way I understand what is important to  them.  An Asatru has little concern over the wiccan rede, a stryga might  not want to  talk about Cerridwen. But too many use labels as a way  to  seperate pagans that  we don't agree with  as a seperate group.  Jimmy is a neopagan with a path based on  Gardenerian ideals, he is not like me I  am a druid / Celtic Recon with a dedicated honor of Lugus.

Religious Tolerence is what  most pagans seek for, but are hypocritical for just the same. We want the rights to  follow out beliefs freely and openly, but not only do  we refuse it on many  christians we refuse to  give it to many  pagans. As long as Jimmy  doesn't judge my path, why  should I  judge his. We have to  lead by  example, to  show  the christians and muslims this is how it is done. If a group of pagans is to  be formed they must be able to be respectful of other paths.  And we as pagans need to  show adult  behavior and give them a chance to  show thier true intentions.

To  those that  want to  help  the pagan communities and do it with pure intentions, I  give you my deepest gratitude. You have a difficult job full of challenges.  The more I  discover  people standing up willing to face negative remarks and actions, the more proud I  am for being a pagan. We don't walk the same path, but we do  share some of the same views. If you are a pagan  look around at the pagan ezines, blogradios, and youtube videos and realize something  special. Your path is your path, and it is wonderful when it crosses the path of another pagan.  That is when we share thoughts, make friends, and make this world a better place.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Christianity and Eclectic Wicca

There are times were you have to  forget about being popular and stand up  for what  you believe in.  This is one of those cases. I make it no secret that I have troubles with many  eclectic wiccans, specially eclectic wiccans that openly surround themselves with "love , light, and happiness".  Do I  have reasons for being so  down on these people? Yes I  do.  Does this view go  along with my  desire to  have religious tolerence? Yes it does.  This is thier path and not my  path.  While I  might disagree with it, because I  think  that  they  are not balanced. It is for them to live, and not me.

What  does this have to  do  with  christianity? Alot, in my opinion. Thanks to  eveerything that I have learned in the last  few years I  see christianity in a bad light.  Christianity is nothing more than a dualistic jewish cult. These early christians couldn't handle thier god killing and doing all  these bad things, so  they  created ...SATAN.  Satan is actually a hebrew verb meaning "to stand against" In the jewish torah, everywhere that  'satan' is mentioned it is meant in that  manner. That is why  the christians have this dualistic view point of " You  are either for god or against god." 

The bible has over 30,000 verse in it. And most christians haven't read the entire bible like a book. What  they  do is pick  and choose 100 verses and base thier beliefs on those verses. They  picked out the 100 verses that  support thier beliefs and makes them feel  good about themselves.  Anyone that has actually read the bible or done any bible research knows that there are hundreds of bible contradictions.  If a none believer points out a contradiction, they  are told that  they  are reading it out of context. That  some verses are parables and ironic statements. These christians are buffet bible followers. pick  and choose what  they can use and want and ignore everything else.

In the years of debating and dealing with  christians I  have grown an attitude of them being shallow hypocrits. They  are weak  and lazy as well. I  say this  because of the heavan rule concerning jesus. That all you have to  do is accept jesus  as your savior and  all  your sins are forgiven.  All  you have to  do is believe and you don't have to  try to be a good person. You  don't have to work  on yourself to  get into  heavan. Because the fruits of a man's lavor can't earn his way into  heavan...  I  think  that  was added to make another control tool for the priests.

So  what  does all  this have to  do  with  eclectic wicca?  I  would say  that  half of the eclectic wiccans are following the history of christianity. Maybe it is because the growth of wicca was spurred by  the churches not allowing female ministers. Causing many  upset women to  adopt wicca so  that they  can have some level of control religiously in thier lives. They  were having thier christian ways affect thier wicca structure.  They  went through all of the pagan pathways and started to cherry  pick what  they  liked, and shunned the rest. The rede was turned into  this dogmatic law, "Harm none, so it be done". That  was a positive and loving statement, so  they  turned it into  a law. 

Gods and goddesses were also  cherry  picked to  fit the needs of that person.  Pantheons were ignored and the gods and goddesses were served in a buffet for the eclectic wiccans to  choose from.  Where the christians used verses, many  eclectics used a certain god or goddess. "I  follow the goddess Demeter, this makes me a hedge witch."  or " I  honor the god, Dian Cecht, thus I  am a healer."  I  watched and loved a youtube video talking about the gods and goddesses being used  like pokemon.  I have talked to  eclectics that  change thier gods and goddess regularly.  They  never build a relationship  with  the a certain god or goddess, they  use them on a as needed basis.

I  follow a Celtic path, I  honor only the celtic gods and goddesses. The hardest work that I had to  do  was to find the Gaulic names for the gods and goddesses.  I  didn't use the Irish name for this god and the Scottish  name for that  god.  Some of the gods and goddesses that I  honor are not popular or considered nice, but  they  are a part of the Celtic tradition and so I  honor them all.

Light and love... Many  of these eclectic pagans  focus on light and love. They  mirrored the christian stance of only using the positive attributes of a pathway  and shun the rest.  I have been in pagan rooms and chatted with  eclectics that  said that I  am too  negative. I  am blunt and lack  some of the finer points.  I have seen these eclectics run away  from anything that  doesn't make them happy or they complain about how negative people are. Recently in a pagan facebbok group, I  went through just that.  I  was even called a "problem poster". We criticize the christians for being so  closed minded, but these eclectic wiccans can be just as bad.  I  am not wording my  statements in a happy tone, so I  am attacking someone's path.  JUst like if you say something that is not inline with  christian beliefs you are attacking jesus.

I have seen this term used by others and I  have adopted it as well. Fluff Bunny is a term I  use to describe a pagan that is so  concerned with  love and light that  they  have lost all  balance.  They  have become fundies on this stance. They  can't handle negativity on any level. If you can't talk in a loving happy manner they  want you to  be quiet, and you can't argue because that is negative.

Life is not a black  and white world. These eclectic wiccans have the view of light and love, which is 2 dimensional  thinking just like the christian stance of .. You  are either for god or against god.  There are thousands shades of grey in between black  and white. There are thousands of colors as well. If you shun certain aspects of the world you are missing out on so much. The crone is considered by many  as a dark  goddess of death and endings. I look at  her as warmth as well. She is the grandma that  has wisdom to offer.  Grandmas are known to  take care of the children when needed to.  Once you lift that viel of gray  you will  find a heart of warmth.

Conflict is a stressful thing for many  of these eclectics. With  thier love and light stance, when situations come that  require someone to  stand-up  for an important cause, they  run away .  Christian groups like DC-40 wanted to impose christianity as the primary religion of the US. We needed people to  stand up and work against this group.  But the Love and light wiccans refused to  help. DC-40 wanted to  take away  thier rights to follow wicca, but they refused to do  anything.  They  will run and they  will hide, and they  will complain about anyone that  tries to get support to defend pagan beliefs. To  them we should just stop the hostilities, we are being to  negative.  Just like the christians that  proclaim "Love your nieghbor", it only counts when the nieghbor is doing what  you want him to do.

If you are an Eclectic wiccan, you are free to  believe as you want. These are the rules that I have to  place on myself first. If someone believes in a relgion and it makes them happy and they  don't go  around trying to push it on anyone else, I  am happy for that person. I  will  respect your views as yours.  But I  will  find it hard to  take you serious when you can't accept negativity or anything considered dark . Reality has both positive and negative events happening constantly, sometimes we have to  accept it.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

How I became a Pagan

I  was very  lucky  that  my parents weren't devout christians. They  did  take us to church a few times, but my dad wasn't the biggest fan of churches. My  dad worked on the road alot and Sundays were a day  for him to  sleep in. My  dad also  had a few spell  books and other occult items kept in a trunk in the basement. My  dad said that I  could look  at them as long as I  put them back. He also  got the catalogs from World Wide Curios every year. So I  have seen many  occult/ Pagan items from an early age.  I  tried to  be a good christian  and fit in with the crowd. But christianity never felt good to me. I  was always feeling empty and some things didn't make sense to me. I  considered myself a christian , even when I  didn't feel like one. One of my  last  attempts as a kid of being a good christian was ruined by  a holy roller. I had been going to  church  for a month, and I  got sick. Stuck in bed for a week sick. So I  missed two Sundays of Church.  The very next Sunday  when I  was finally feeling back  to normal, I  went back  to  church. And this one lady  walked up  to me and said, " I  thought you were going to  be religious."  That  was the last  time as a kid I  stepped into  a church.

When I  finally moved out from home I  decided that it was time to  research various religous groups that I  had read about when I  was a kid.  So I  went to  the local library  and checked out some books and I  did a lot of reading. I  concentrated on the holy lands and I  read about Zorastrianism. I  couldn't get much  information about them, and from what I  read it seemed like a decent path.  I  tried to  find more information, from a small town library, it is rather hard to find anything about other religions. I  decided that I  was going to be better than the christians around me and labeled myself a "Magi  Humanist" . I  loved the self adopted title and freedom I had.  But I  was young, impatient, and busy at work. When things didn't get better with getting information I  got bored and walked away  from that  path.

These were the pre-internet days. I  feel in love with role-playing and war games. Those two  hobbies filled my love for history and my spare time. I  was able to  learn about my  heritage by  researching for the roleplaying games. Many  years pass and I  a non-practicing christian.

 I then started my family and went through two  failed marriages. I  acted like the good little christian in both marriages. Went through the marriage counciling with  ministers  so  that I  could get married in a church. Both events were terrible experiences. The first was through the salvation army minister that my first wife liked. And the second marriage I  had to  go through  two  different ministers because the first minister  said he couldn't marry us after 5 weeks of conciling because we were living together.  Which  really pissed us off.  I  was trying to  work  past my  doubts and be a devout christian boy  so  that I  could be a good husband. Well  the second marriage ended ugly. The mind games that  I  went through had placed a lot of damage to  myself.  I  was a mental  mess. During the divorce I  bought myself my  own computer and I  started to  connect with  the world around me. My  second wife hated the internet.  I  started to  talk  to non-believers, I  had started to  buy  pagan books. Then the best thing that  happened to me occured.  I  was checking out Yahoo  chatrooms, and I  found this one religion room full of non-christians. I  learned so much  from these people. The troubles that I  was having with  the bible was explained to me. They  showed  me contradictions in the bible. We exchanged  stories, like when the JW's come knocking on the door. I  was starting to  see the world differently. I  was at a night anger class, and a man started to  talk  about how he started to  change his life, he was reading about bhuddism. It made me think, and I  started to  realize that  the way I have been thinking has been changing my life as well.  I  continued talking in the chatrooms, read pagan/celtic books,  and a lot of self reflection.  I  made a few very  good pagan friends and I  was thinking about following a celtic pagan path.  But I  still had a lot of issues to work out.  My night anger class was showing me that I  was not the super evil person at  fault with  everything.  In fact, they showed some instances were I  was the victim.  Some things I  was guilty of in my  second marriage, but not all.  I  was starting to  put my  pieces back together.

 Early Spring in Iowa and I  decided to  go  to  the state park  and have a walk. I  think  best when I  am walking one of the many  trails. I  was thinking of my  life and how everything was starting to make sense to me now. I  knew that what  was in the past was wrong. History has shown what  was the right things to  do. Before I  was back  to my  car, I  denouced christianity and devoted myself to  honoring the Earth.  I  felt wonderful, I was looking through a new set of eyes. The world and I  felt as one.  I  declared myself pagan.

I  did  a lot of research  over the years. taking notes and refining the information out there. I  was Scot/Irish and I  was going to  follow the path of my  ancestors. I  was going to  be a druid. Easier said than done. But that is the path  that I  am on. I have devoted myself  to  study Celtic traditions and anything that is connected with Celtic traditions and history.  I knew of the ways the church converted  pagans to christianity and it made me sick. I  learned of the witch  trials.  I   talked and helped out other pagans. I  felt absolutely wonderful  helping others. And I  learned about the druids as being teachers as well. It felt wonderful walking down this path.

The road was rocky, I  doubted myself many times. But with  every obsticle that I overcame I  became stronger. I left being the person everyone else thought I  should be and became the person I  wanted to be.  The Journey has been rough but it helped make me the Pagan I  am today.

Friday, November 18, 2011

Greetings, A little about me....

Merry meet, I  am called blue by many,  I  am a complex person in many  ways. I  am creating this blog so  that  I  can better express myself and to change  the world as we know it.  The title for my  blog is important to me. I  am a pagan, which is a follower of the old ways of honoring the earth and the many  cycles of nature. There are many  paths to  take in Paganism, I  am following a Celtic Recon/Druid path.  Robert Frost in 1920  wrote a very interesting poem that best describes my journey. Two  roads diverge in the wood, and I  took the road less traveled, and it made all the difference.  Life is not about the destination, it is about the Journey.  I  could easily try to  fit in with everyone else, but then I  would be unhonest with myself.

I have a love for history, and with  that  love I  have read some sad tales of events past. Years ago where history tells us of men that killed and plundered his fellow man for self gain.  A time of which a group of people  used power to abuse and control those less fortunate. I have decided to  stand as a man against the driving wind and rain. Nothing changes in history until someone says no. Where no man will  say  no  against the odds, I  will  stand. I see so  many other pagans run at the sight of anger and hostilities, but I  shall  draw a line in the sand and hold my  place.  I  feel  as if I  am Gandalf at the bridge against the Balrog. With my  Staff in my  hand declaring "You  shall not pass!!" 

I  see many  battle for the pagan community from outside and from within.  This way of life for me doesn't make me the popular person, I  will  easily get a list of those that  do not like me. But that  doesn't matter. If something is of value to  you then you must stand up for it. You  can't allow others to  take what  you hold dear. I stand against the Abrahamic religions and thier actions. I  am told that I  am as bad as they  are. But I  am not,  I  can't let these abrahamic religions go unchecked, You  can't be nice to a group  that  thinks the world should follow thier god only. I am told to  let it go  by  those pagans that  try to  surround themselves with only positive  love and light. In these people I  see no balance and no  strength. Life is full of good and bad events, and if you can't handle the small  stuff, you can't handle the larger issues. But there are the rare pagans out there that  understand life and live in balance of light and darkness. With  these people, when they  see my  actions and respect me. I  would rather have one person's respect, than have 2 peoples friendship. Respect is earned, it is not given.

I  believe that  the day  you stop  learning you stop living. So part of my  Journey is to  learn as well. I  also  work  as a teacher. My  blunt style has caused many ripples in communities, but I  do make people think, and isn't that  what is important.  I  am blunt, honest, lacking the finesse, and somethings just cranky, but that is the way  that  I  am.  I  call myself an asshole, Adept Stoic Sentient Homosapien Obtaining Logical Education.