It is about the Journey...

     As I  continue my  spiritual  path  to  a better me, I  have to  remind myself that it is the journey  that makes all  the difference. We learn from experiences and seeing new concepts or things in the world.  I  have been so  happy building my  pagan 101 video  series.  I  am actually getting more views for my videos.  The wheels are turning and picking up  speed. I have even picked-up  a couple of subscribers since I  started this project.  I  am happy, and the bonus is that I  am remembering and learning things that I  need to know. I  am looking at my  spiritual mirror and liking what I  see.

     There is a little uproar in the pagan community about a movie that is being released. Hansel and Gretel, Witch  Hunters. I  was going to  just walk away from the movie, but I  have been seeing the commercial for it and it bothers me.  The quote that  bothers me is about how not all  witches are bad, but they  are going to  kill  them all.  This movie is promoting the wrong way  to  think in so many  ways. They  are talking about killing people, murder is wrong unless it is to  defend yourself and/or others that can't defend themselves. Blind judgements toward a class of people. A person could be a good person, but because they are a part of a certain class of people, they must die.  I  was spending the day  trying to  think about  how I would counter this movie.  What if I  was to  write a screenplay  for a man that  was molested by  catholic ministers as a kid, and then at some point in his life, decides that  they  all must die. Not all ministers molested little boys,  so  to  kill all  would be wrong. I  know that  the christian community would be forming mobs to protest such a movie from being made. It is just a movie though, and I  hope that  the mentality of this movie fades away quickly.

     I  read today  about a fellow pagan preparing for a massive change in how she presents herself. I will  not state her name out of respect.  This pagan has used her witch name for many  years and has become well established in the pagan community. She also mentioned that  her fame has come at a price. So  she is going to  stop using her witch name and start using her real name.  I  must give her credit for such a bold move.  I wish  her the best of luck in this transition.  This has made me started to  think about me using my  witch name compared to my real name.  I have enjoyed the degree of separation, and it is needed because I  am a divorced father.  I know that there would come a time that I  might have to  use both together.  Until  them I  am very happy being "Blue". 

     I  have splurged on myself in silly little matters this week. The local  Dollar General is selling Christmas stuff for 25 cents each, no matter what  the item is. So I have been buying metal tins and a few other things that  could be used for pagan purposes. Some of the tins will  be used as storage tins for nails and screws in the basement.  I have been wanting to  build something real bad as of late. I have the urge to use  my hand tools for something.  I just haven't figured out what I  want to make.

     I am feeling very  proud of myself at work, but there is a little shame as well.  I have a reputation of being a mean person.  I  am stubborn and I like to  get the job required done right and as fast as possible.  When things are going good, I  will laugh  and joke.  But when things go wrong, I  am complaining and rather rude with everyone that is not doing what  they  need to do.  I have a co-worker that  works with me in the cooler,  and he is a rather cranky person.  The level of profanity and bad attitude is worse than mine.  Reflecting back on the person that I used to  be, I  hope I  was never that  bad.  I  told myself that I  owed several people and apology if I  ever was that  bad.

     Every  day is a step on your spiritual path.  We don't go  from Point A to  Point B overnight.  with  every step  we discover new things upon the horizon and down by  our feet when we take the time to look  down and around ourselves.  The road less traveled is the journey of discovery of who we are as individuals and the truth of the world around us.  Don't run when you can walk,  don't stare at the horizon when something amazing is right beside you.

Pagan Nerd Warrior...

     With the New year now here, we have all  did  our reflections into  the past, present and future. We have all  decided on some level to better ourselves in some matter. I  have reflected in the past year and while there are somethings that I  didn't accomplish, I  am very happy with  who I am at the moment.  I  tried to  find the words that  best describe who or what I  am.  And the Best that  I  could assemble is 'Pagan Nerd Hero".   I  am without a doubt a very  dedicated pagan that has placed a lot of  time , money, effort into my way of life.  I  think  everyday of pagan concepts and what  projects to work on.  When I  go  to  a local  consignment shop, I  am always asking myself  what here has a pagan flare to it.  The Nerd is easy to tell  you about, I  go to  the book store and I  get reference books along with my  pagan books. One of my  latest books is "The New York Public Library Desk  Reference."   Warrior is the last  word that  describes me. I have decided long ago  that I  will  stand for  what  I  believe in. I will not  let friends get in the way  of what is right. I  sign petitions,  print and voice my opinions anywhere I  feel it is needed.
      My  journey in being a Diamond in the rough has been achieved.  I am not  the nicest person, I lack  some of the basic social  skills that  others dwell on. But I am valuable, I  work hard on everything that is important to  me. I  extend my  hand to  help others that  need it.  My knowledge in many  topics is growing, I  have so much  to learn it is scary.  I  don't want to  be one of those polished refined people, because they  are expected and required to work  on such  a higher level and with such  poise.  When you are still  a little rough you can handle the difficult matters with  a rougher plan.  I  am more able to think outside of the box, because I have the ability to react more openly and without restraint.

    Tomorrow I have a busy day planned, I  will  be creating many more videos for my  YouTube  Paganism 101 series. I made a decision to be more of a teacher, I spent a day  making 11-23 lessons ,  I  was being general in topic, only explaining the basics of the various topics.  A three minute video is not what I  want to  use to  teach  people. So I  am scraping those videos and redoing many  of them tomorrow.  I  am wanting to  help  those that  are just starting out  understand the basics and help  them be better pagans. 

     I  am in planning mode for a mini  pagan garden.  The plan is to find the large wooden  barrels that people use for planting and create a mini garden out of it.  I  am going to  create a stone cairn out of some flat  rocks from Springbrook.  I  am  also  going to  find small  figures and pebbles to make a mini meditation garden that I  can Astral  travel to. Then in the rest of the garden I  am going to  plant some herbs.  Because I  have to  be creative, I  am also  designing glass flowers for the back  yard.  I have a collection of blue and green wine and vodka bottles.  I  am going to  connect the old fashioned glass power line  bases to  the bottles and give them the look of glass flowers.

     I am very  glad that  the holidays are over, that means that  the stress levels for not just myself but for most of society are down.  Things can go back to  a normal rhythm and life will  be even more wonderful.  Yes I a can look in the mirror and be happy with  who I am.  Some things I  didn't finish last year, so I  must push myself harder.  I  can do it, I  will be stronger and better in 2013. 

    My advice for you is simple. Don't dwell in the past, but  don't forget it either.  You  can be anything you wish to be.  If you can picture yourself  being  such a person, then do it.  Sometimes the small  little things are the start we need to  better grander things.  We set our own limitations,  tear down those hurdles and be the best you that  you can be.